As much as I like to go away for a few days, even if it was to freezing, snowy Massachusetts, I really hate coming back here…
I’ve been thinking about the choices I’ve made over the last few years and I wonder what might have been if I had done just a few crucial moments differently… For all I know I might not be where I am right now, I could be somewhere completely different. And I think that’s what depresses me the most.
I’ve not been particularly happy with where I’ve been for the last few years now and I always think how things might be if I was somewhere else, I’d probably have the same mental health problems but… I dunno. It’s probably best if I don’t think about alternate universes where a happy version of me might exist because that’s not me, I’m me, not him…
Comprende?
Another thing about taking a few days off is you have piles of work to get through, just because I was off doesn’t mean work stops flying into the equivalent of my “in box”.
Thanks to those guys with the kind words over the last few days, but really… I’m ok.
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The questions you ask yourself about ‘what might have been’ are not bad ones so long as you keep in mind that the future is NOW. If you want something to be different in the future – you have to do something different right now. Make sense? I suffer from similar thoughts with some regularity, but I’m about to flip it all upside down and see what happens. :)